Honor to mine family
The present day, Lady Capulet and the Nurse cameth to counsel me, albeit I’d sayeth Lady Capulet cameth to telleth me that I has't to marry. This is an injustice and something I truly doth not wanteth to doth, yet if 't be true I don’t do't, I wilt dishonor mine family and I don’t wanteth to doth that, especially because I am one of the youngest Capulets whose age fit marriage and tis mine responsibility to keepeth our bloodline running whether we like it or not. Lady Capulet toldeth me that I wilt has't to marry Paris, and while I said that it is just an honor, it is certainly not something I would ever want to do. The worst part is that she asked me to love him as best as I can as if such thing was possible - I haven’t even met the man, let alone love him regardless of how long I get to know him because him and I know that we’re just going to marry due to political reasons. I do not think that true love exists, as at least for people who come from families with power are forced to marry other families with power. Who knows, maybe some day I will find the right one, although I doubt it - he’d have to be someone who I am legitimately interested in, not some random “champ” who people claim to be perfect, because that does simply not exist. Oh diary, hold my heart with love and keep my feelings and obvious secrets hidden, for this is the true only way to express myself. A party has been organized by Lady Capulet and I’ll have to attend. It sounds like fun, but I am not interested in it like everything else. I wonder if my entire family will attend, but that sounds absurd. It will be a big event and nice memories will probably stay in my mind because of it, that’s for sure. I must go and have at least a little bit of fun or joy. Will I meet the perfect man? I doubt it, but it’s possible. I don’t think Paris will go to that party mainly because he has more important matters to attend to. I am looking forward to meeting him… not. He hasn’t even tried to look for me. What if I was the ugliest woman on earth, yet she doesn't know it? It would still probably not matter, for he would probably not even talk to me nor have any physical contact with my skin… like I said before, it just has to do with politics. I am truly disappointed in how the system works. Please dear god, save me from this monstrosity and take me to a better place once I die, or revive me in a better piece of flesh rather than the one I was born with.
Still, I cannot let the thought out of my head. I, Juliet, will marry a man named Paris. What will be of my life once I do it? Will I be happy? What is going to happen? Will eternal anxiety and hatred surround my heart because I’ll be living with a man that I don’t like? If I have children, how will they look like, and will they even be physically good-looking when I am having sexual contact with a man that I do not like? But who knows, maybe he will be a good husband. I do not know him, so I sure hope he is at least half as perfect as people claim he is, otherwise, I will live in misery. Right now my life is calm, and once I marry him, I hope it stays the same. I do not want parties every day or night nor a man who is disrespectful towards me - I just want a man with charisma, honor, pride, and responsibilities. Apparently, that is too much to ask for. Oh, dear stars…
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